hi
i have had ongoing problems in my marriage. since my baby has been born a few months ago things have just went from bad to worse... today has been an especially hard day- the baby has colic at the minute and i had a hard time dealing with it this morning. we had an argument after that. then i ask for space (we talked about this in counselling - he keeps going on and on and on at me arguing etc etc when i say can we leave it) i go out of one room he follows me and keeps going on. so i say i am going out to get some space. he slams the door, say i never give HIM a minute to talk, and storms off the rest of the day leaving me to do all the housework (sunday is the only day he helps me so i did his and mine) and look after the baby. he comes in again and i am exhausted from house and an unsettled baby and demands we talk - when i say now isn't the right time he just keeps arguing, provoking me, accusing me of things, we just fire darts at each other. yet again, i keep leaving rooms to stop it, and he keeps following me. until i throw the hot chocolate (the tin of mix)) on the floor which spills everywhere. by this point i have no energy left for anyore cleaning so i say im just leaving it for now. he says either clean that up or else im taking the baby out for the night. the baby needs me as she is upset at the minute and needs me for feeding and comfort, so i say no i need the baby here with me....so he goes out for the night too. bear in mind, this is his one day off a week, and he says as this is his one day off a week he did not want to do housework. well since this was his one day off a week, i thought he might have helped me during the day with the baby a bit more so i could get a break! i am emotionally worn out with upset after upset. so after he left i couldn't stop crying, i cleaned the hot chocolate, packed my stuff and have gone to stay at my mums with the baby. this is not the first time ive ended up here. i hear the baby crying downstairs with mum and dad. i am so tired - i don't want to live with him anymore. but it seems to hard to leave - there would be so much stuff to sort out... i don't know if i have the strength for all that... but i don't have the strength to keep living like this, and arguing in front of the baby is not good i don't want her to see mum crying angry and upset a lot of the time. we are currently going to counselling. even with that, i don't think i can go back. i don't know what to do. im too far away from everything here, but it seems so hard to get my own place. citizens advice says i would just about be able to afford to rent somewhere - i am not working i look after baby fulltime, was doing a college course but took a year out for the baby. idon't know what to do anymore.