Hi i am sorry if this is a bit long but i would appreciate any advice
I'm just a young mum (23) and have been in a stressful relationship for the past 2 years with a man whom i love very much (he is 36). He has cheated on me three times in the past (1 that i can prove, 2 that i can't but i know he did because i read the texts which he then deleted) and i have discovered last night that he has been cheating yet again. Over the past few weeks we have moved into a new area and bought a house together. I thought he was happy and that he was finished all his cheating and carrying on behind my back. The past few weeks he has been distant, hiding his phone, never being in the house, staying out all night and hasn't even kissed me in 5 weeks.
Last night he finished work and sat downstairs with the door closed for 2 hours on his phone. I went downstairs at midnight and found him sitting looking guility. he jumped up and his phone went straight into his pocket. We went to bed and he fell asleep almost instantly. His phone was constantly vibrating as if he was getting new texts all the time. this was 1 o clock in the morning so i picked up his phone and saw that he had several messages on live profile which i didn't know he had. I have the app on my phone so i put his email address in and guessed his password within minutes. he only had 1 contact which was a woman i had never heard of or met before. I looked at his profile and i was actually sick. His display pic was of this woman playing with herself which she had obviously sent him. I didn't sleep last night at all.
I woke up this morning and there was a message from her saying we still meeting tonight. I saw this as an opportunity so i pretended to be him and she was quite forthcoming with information about what they were going to be doing that evening. I was sick again.
I completely lost it and confronted him about it which is not like me at all. He actually stood there and denied it. Saying he never knew her that someone was pretending to be him and winding him up, that he had never heard of live profile etc etc. I showed him the proof i had and he just sat in silence whilst i screamed at him.
I told the woman who i was and she was shocked she had no idea he had a girlfriend and child. He had lied about his age, where he stayed and everything. She said she met him just after Christmas and she had seen him almost every day since. Thats 3 weeks of constant cheating. He even spent my birthday with her.
I feel sick. I can't eat, sleep or even concentrate. I don't know what to do. I have forgiven him so many times in the past but i honestly don't know if i can do it this time because it feels as though my heart has been ripped out of my chest.
We do have a child and we have just bought a house together so it's going to be really hard to walk away and i know i can't afford the house by myself. We have a spare bedroom do you think that sleeping in seperate rooms for a bit would help? I really don't know what to do.
I love him but i am so hurt and upset that i can't even look at him. I don't trust him at all.
Are the house, child, money worries etc enough for us to stay together or should love and trust come first?
Any advice would be much appreciated thank you