Does it get easier?

[MudAndGlitter]

The wondering if you've made a mistake and all that. I know I've done the right thing but I keep remembering good times and memories. I'm trying to force them out by thinking of the crap he put me through and the humiliation but happy times with him keep creeping back in.

Yes. It does. Don't block those thoughts: you need to process it all. Accept whatever feelings come (fear, anger, grief,...), and eventually you'll be able to let them go.

My username refers to how I feel 1 year on, btw. Time really does heal all.

It does get easier and you are in the grieving stage, it is sad and you shouldn't be in this situation but your ex was completely disregarding your feelings and was showing no respect for you. You stood up for yourself and that was right, doesn't mean it's easy however.

When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one that has opened for us.

Good Luck

Try writing and keeping a journal. It's been a huge help for me...and my username also refers to how I feel a couple of months on....at least some of the time anyway!! Not always easy though..