I've posted on here before, but as background, in June I moved cities, in August I became pregnant and in October I threw DH out as he was extremely abusive to me. I have since discovered that he is so so angry with me for everything that has happened in his or my life for the past 23 years. he actually hates me. Not that that justifies abusive behaviour at all.
The problem is that I am in a new city, with my older children and have been extremely unwell with this pregnancy. I don't know anyone, I have no family support. I've been working too. I thought I was holding it together pretty well, but I've fallen apart now. to start with dh's behaviour was a mystery to me, I wondered about another woman, mental illness etc etc, but actually he just hates me so much, he blames me for everything.
I think I have to move back to my old city. I have no support here at all, and there I have friends and my pretty crap family. But they are better than nothing. I worry about giving birth here, I worry about having a newborn with no support. H says I am selfish to be thinking of moving back as the children are happy here and schools are much better here. That is true. But I just don't see how I can continue here with him as my only "support". he continues to slag me off everytime I see him. telling me that the flat is dirty, that I'm a crap mother, sister and friend. That I ruined the relationship. I cannot see what I did wrong in the relationship and he won't tell me as he says he shouldn't have to. 
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I have decided that I have no choice but to cut contact with him and move back. But I have no school places there and no chance of any coming up soon.
I truly am a mess and can't see what to do for the best. or just to survive really.