Would love to know if this is something everybody feels/ goes through or If I am just a bit weird. I'm being very brave and not name changing and everything.
After sex, with my lovely DH who I have a very good relationship with, I feel overwhelmed with feelings of guilt and shame. I certainly feel like we are doing something naughty/dirty that we would be told off for if anyone 'caught' us.
I have a number of theories about why I might feel like this
- is that we have a 5 month old dd who I am breast feeding - Perhaps I feel that by enjoying myself sexually I am not being a good mother. Or that its wrong to allow both my husband and daughter access to my body?
- Me and DH met as teenagers and used to go for nice long walks in woods... ahem, so we started out having sex 'in secret'.
- past abuse... again, super secretive which has only come to light in the past five years or so.
- everyone feels this way after sex, or at least women do. And this is why we are so keen for cuddles afterwards, for reassurance that what just happened was ok.
I used to dominate in bed (particularly when I had a large bump - shock! sex in pregnancy!) but more recently feel like I want DH to be in charge, and admitting this to myself, and to DH, makes me very uncomfortable. I shouldn't enjoy these things.
So - any theories, am I bonkers or just like the rest of you. And what can I do about it - because it's horrible for DH to have sex with me, and then for me to curl up in a little ball and weep afterwards.