Feeling strong but alone

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I separated from my alcoholic DH today, after 5 years of on/off drinking. I feel like I made the decision a while back but today feel free, strong but a little scared for th future.

I am without income, as we are self-employed together. I need a job. I am waiting for my tax credits form to come back with details of what we might get; we never claimed it previously. I need to get out there and find some work.

I have no idea where to go from here. Anyone got a guidebook?

I love my husband but I cannot be his carer. I want a true partner in life, and I want to be happy. I must protect my children from the inevitable erosion of his mental health.

It is so hard, and I am scared and strong at the same time. My poor children.

There is no guidebook - but trust your feet (they know where to go already I think) and keep walking. It will be a time of emotional highs and lows.
Poor kids, poor you, and to a certain extent poor him too. Am sure he has reasons - but no excuses. Perhaps he will get help now...
I'm sure you have done the right thing btw, and I think you will be ok. All the best x

Thank you. I am very strong and I know we will be OK. Very daunted by the prospect of supporting us all.