has anyone gone through the same or similar situation...my ex and I have been on and off nearly twenty years!!! and have never been able to live together although sexually very good and to this day still find him attractive. We spilt for good last Christmas. In that time he met some one but recently they split and he told me he still has feelings for me which has completley messed my head up. We have two young children and I miss being a family unit and feel lonely as the guys I seem to attract or I'm drawn too are inappropriate, one is into his drugs,the other had a girlfriend and the last allot younger than me and gone travelling.
I suppose I feel a little upset as it was my birthday recently and I thought If my ex really cared for me would of remembered my birthday (no card was given not even from the children) was told it was on order but it never arrived, Christmas I made cards with the children for him and his family and got the children to choose him a little present each to give him, but again nothing back. So this sort of proves nothing would really change if we did get back togetherr and the fact he then told me the girl he was seeing was coming over the Christmas period to spend time with him???
Why am I still drawn to him and why do I meet inappropriate guys? Any advise greatly appreciated.xxxx