Hi, Despite my latest incarnation as Lovingfreedom, this evening I have started wavering again for the first time in several weeks. My DH left in early November having been a financial leech, lazy, emotionally abusive and at least emotionally unfaithful if not actually fully adulterous (think he was both though). Since he left I've realised how little he did, haven't missed him much or at all, have re-kindled my social life with friends and family and have even been on a date with a friend that I've now got a huge crush on. Kids are happy, I'm happy, the house is much cleaner, quieter, calmer, nicer and more loving. All the Xmas presents are bought and wrapped for the first year I can remember and I've even been doing some DIY (as in home improvements ;-)) I have been communicating with my ex only when necessary about arrangements for kids. More recently over email for discussing a separation order and what that would entail. Got a bit awkward but I was ok with how it was progressing. Then today his Mum came to see me. I told her I was great, not missing him and set her straight about load of things that were wrong with relationship. Later he phoned, long argumentative call telling him straight no possibility of reconciliation at all. I'm moving on, I'm happier, don't love him, don't miss him blah blah. Well he came up to get kids stuff this afternoon, in tears. Didn't move me at all. I haven't cried in front of him or on phone to him for weeks. Not crying much any more alone either. Feel like I'm pretty much over it. But then this evening I feel the wavering is back. How do you deal with this. I think it is just some kind of hankering after 'normality' - know I'm doing the right thing though by sticking to my decision (which I did not make lightly or easily). Help!!