Feeling so ashamed because I lost it totally

[GurlwiththeFrothyCurl]

I ended up pulling my hair out in clumps and screaming because my son kicked off again. The background is that my DH is disabled, DS1 has ASD and is in his 20s. I am also very ill with numerous things, all caused by extreme stress. I am the breadwinner and have been for 10 years as DH is unable to work. DS1 has his first ever job, but we found out tonight that he had withdrawn a huge amount of money from his account and spent it on something stupid. He has basically been conned by a shop over and over again. We can't do anything as they have not done anything illegal. They don't know my DS has a disability that makes him unable to understand the value of money. He kicked off when he got home and I just lost it. I can't cope any more and wish I could just end it. But they all need me too much. I will never get well as I can't ever get away from the stress.

Thanks, I have had pretty strong words with DH today about letting DS have his card, even for a day. DS came back from work in a much better mood, so we are very relieved that he hasn't messed up his job. Just so upset about all the money he has lost when he can only get a minimum wage job! It was left to him by MIL when she died a few years ago and is meant to help him in the future, not be frittered away or lost to con artists.