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[lentilbake]

I am so scared knowing that things will never get better

I don't want to spend the rest of my life crying every day

I want to start living again

I'm sick of my plans being ruined by being too upset to want to do anything or too tired to as i've been up al night thinking how horrible he is

why does he have to upset me every day? why cant he leave me alone?

if he hates me so much why does he come back to me?

wi i ever be able to enjoy my beautiful children again or will h always makeme too depressed too

i dont know what to dom sick if being trapped wish i could escape dont think i will be free tili die :( :(:( :(

So sorry you're having such a bad time, lots of support here, and women who have got away from horrible partners/husbands and enjoying life again, it can be done!

Do you have anyone to help in real-life? Hope so.

Hang in there.

oh lentil things sound awful, are you married?

You do have choices but it takes time to realise when 99% of your day revolves around one person.

Keep posting

IWBF xx

married but dont live with keeps coming round shouting through letterbox etc

4 lovely children

see my other threads for details

Just read your other threads - what a nightmare, have you considered a restraining order?

He sounds like a nasty bastard.

xx

This seems to be your 4th post on this board but you haven't come back to any other of the others to say whether you've acted on the advice given.

When he assaulted you in your new home, did you call the police? If not, why not?

Love. you have to stop this. You are being terrorised. NO-ONE has the right to do that to you, your DC. Please, read around the board, understand that this is something that is being done AGAINST you and that you need to stand up for yourself and for your DC

Please just call WA and talk to them? Ask an outreach worker to come and see you, to help you formulate a strategy to stop this.

sorry i didn't get back to anyone after ,y las thread computer played up and by the timei got it working again couldn't find oldt hread

police not much help as no witness despite e thinking everyone heard and no bruises

had probs before when i was atacked in town as nothing showed up on CCTV

although few years before they gave me a lift to somewhere safe when much less severe abuse!

WA have told me very litle chace of getting refuge with so many children and couldnt accommodate their special needs but as i said before dont really want to move again

massive waiting list for outreach

have told ny supportt worker though she was lovely

Darling, you have to not give up for any reason. OK so it's going to be hard. But will it be any harder than what you are living now? NO!

Keep reporting, keep telling, keep talking. Keep notes, dates, times, and content. Can you get a dictaphone/record on your mobile when he's shouting?

Get proof, get evidence. Try the CAB.

We are all thinking of you.

I may understand what you are going through and the exhaustion alone is a killer I know:( Big (((HUGS))) for you....I was and still am never listened to by police...first it was evidence, so I had CCTV then the CCTV is not enough (recently thought car was ex's thankfully not) and police said I need the registration number...so I have to go outside if it is ex and write it down...not on my nelly!

Contact your local Victim Support...they will help you (ask for manager though). WA couldn't accommodate me either as ds home schooled and only disabled room was taken at the time. Plus the home tutors they would not allow in due to confidentiality but understood that.

But sadly your ex will find other ways to get at you when cctv in place...

HerHissy keeps telling me to move...she is right but I know ex would find my again. I guess it may be same in your situation.

How old are your kids can any of them stay with friends...I too 1 of 4 and my oldest siblings stayed with friends when we had to go to WA home when young.