feeling down but don't know what to do.

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I have 2 dc who are lovely but demanding at time. I have a dp who at times opts our of family life. I lost the last of my parents this year. Yet dp wondered why I was crying on the day of the funeral. WTF.
Really don't know what I want. I am not happy with dp but don't know how I will cope on own. Work is very part time and low paid.
Sometimes I feel I am being emotionally abused and I need to get out but I am so confused.
Any tips appreciated.

oh honey - if you can cope with him as he is, coping without him will be a breeze. Promise.

I'm sorry you lost your parent this year. You are grieving and will need to take care of yourself xx

You have an awful lot on your plate at the moment dealing with your bereavement. Suffering this loss must be difficult especially as your DP seems unsupportive.

My advice would be to deal with one thing at a time. Bereavement counseling may help or talking to friends who have also lost a second parent.

In time your grief may not have as much of an impact on your ability to make the right decisions for your future. Leaving this bloke may be the right thing to do, timing could be important.

Be kind to yourself for a while, you are going through a very tough time.

Good luck.