The truth came out last night....it's there black & white in his diary

[marshmallowsontopplease]

He finally showed me his diary yesterday.

He initially tried to hide the info by covering it with his thumb while holding the page.

Asked him to move his thumb, he got lairy, moved it, his face said it all.

His last words to my face were horrible, the words on his last text were just as bad.

Just goes to show female intuition & gut reaction can be strong for a reason.

Am devastated. Seem to be losing "friends" by the week at the moment.

Someone who claims to have a caring soft spot doesn't start the friendship on a lie or end it on a lie, do they?

Phone contract is just money. Buy a cheapie pay as you go for now and use that - or put the PAYG SIM in your contract phone (if you can) and throw your old SIM(phone number) away.
You've been strong so far - good luck!

Most network providers will change your number for free if you tell them you are receiving nuisance calls, you know. Honestly, you should do it. You'll feel free! Well done for keeping strong so far.

Agree you should get a pay as you go SIM and move on. You need to have no contact with him for the benefit of your own sense of self worth.

Also on my phone I can stop call from specific person. For a specific tel number, I can choose if I am even going to know that said person has rung.

Ring up your provider and say you are getting malicious calls and they should send you a new sim and number within a couple of days at no cost. I had to do that recently and my provider were was really helpful.

BTW marsh this guy has been awfull.
If he really think he has no problem at all, then he is completely deluded and best getting rid off.

You are worth much more than that!

He's a grade A knob marsh and you're well shot! It sounds to me like he used the 'friends with benefits' (if you'll excuse the term) set-up to take, take, take and not have to suffer the consequences.

I'm so sorry for you that your heart got involved, I'm sure it's more than he deserves. If he does text to say thank you for the gift IGNORE as best you can! Don't get into a dialogue with him feeling the way you do. It will end in more of your tears and, I would imagine, none of his!

Oh Marshy, he is a tosser. You know you have to now be brave and stop showing any emotion about him.

This is now going to be the start of a much improved life for you and your doggie. You are going to be sad for a while ( accept that and also accept you'll get occasional pangs for him but he's bad for you and you are not going back down that pointless road again).

Then you are going to start living again.
Write down a list of things you like doing, what you'd like to do, what you need to do ( any DIY projects?) and you are going to keep yourself busy for a while.

This guy brings you down, that's why you feel pathetic and useless. He likes the control over you. Get your control back and you are going to have fun in the future.

Lots of luck Marshy.

Poor you (hugs)
But he's a complete and utter knob. He doesn't deserve you, but someone else will.
The sooner the door Is closed on him the sooner your new life can start.
I usually get a new haircut, new outfit and fill up my diary, even if it's things like going for a walk alone in some beautiful woods.
You are will rid honestly.

Thankyou for your productive & pro-active words, I really appreciate them. I have taken them on board.

Sitting at the desk in tears just because I used to be so strong, so positive & I think I have lost 'me'. I used to be a really good judge of character.

I'm also disappointed because I thought/hoped he liked me for who I was...but it now seems he liked me for what I did ie - forgive him relentlessly.

My mind is just snowballing....if he said this, then it means he wasn't being honest about that, which then in turn means he lied about the other, but then that other thing doesn't tie in with this other thing he said...it's escalating & my brain is still buzzing.

My puppy is my saviour, I am getting my hair cut & my boss has given me tomorrow morning off to try & locate a good councillor.

I will struggle to not text him once my anger subsides & I start to feel sorry for him.