Ladies. I'm sitting here on the bedroom floor crying with a sore hand as I've been bashing things up. I just don't know what I'm doing anymore. As previously mentioned in other posts I have depression. One of the major reasons is the relationship with my Dad. {Loooong story found out he was having an affair, in a nutshell}. I've live with my boyfriend of a year - who is not very emotional. Last night - I asked him why we hadn't had sex - He said that he's repulsed by me. And that me having depression was a lot to do with it. I feel like it's so convient for him to blame me/my depression. He makes me feel like I'm a nuisance to him. So I cried - for most of the night. I tried to cry quietly. All I want is to be loved and feel safe. I feel so alone and I miss my Dad so much. He woke up this morning like a bear with a sore head. Cross that he was tired as I'd kept him awake with my crying. I apologised. And now I'm here. Alone in the house until he's home later on tonight 9pm and I don't know how I will get through the day. I love him but I'm so angry with him. Should I go back to my Mum's for a bit? Should I be thinking of ending it? I so confused and sad. My head is a bit sore foggy mess - I ask you with all you wisdom to help me. Help me through Wednesday! Love xxx