Dont really know where to start or why I'm posting. Just need to rant I suppose.
Things aren't great at the moment with me and DH.
We have been together for 5 years, married for 1.5, have 3.6yo DD and 7week old DS.
We haven't spoken to each other since Wednesday when he got in a huff over me not wanting sex, and he was pushing it and pushing it and I lost my rag and asked why he couldn't take no for an answer.
He's so childish.
Things havent really been great for a while if I'm honest, just plodding along for the kids, and because I was pregnant.
He is very strict with money, don't really feel like any of it is mine (I am SAHM) eventhough it is a joint account and technically its 'ours', it feels like because he earns it, it is his money and I have to ask. He says it is ours, not his, but something just doesn't feel right when I spend it, like he moans internally iyswim.
He helped loads when DD was a baby, did all the bottles, steriliser, nappies, feeds etc, everything a dad should do. but this time with DS, he is on different hours at work and out of the house 6-6, and choosing to do overtime he doesn't need to do. We can manage fine without that extra money and to me, spending time at home is more important. But he chooses to go to work. He comes in, plays with DD for an hour, eats dinner, baths then goes on PS3. that's his routine. never offers to help if DS is crying, lets me get on with it.
When DD was 8 weeks old, he went online and swapped numbers with a girl and she sent him dirty pics. His mate took the blame for him and said he was using DH's phone, I only found out the truth when DD was maybe 4/5months old. I keep thinking he will do it again, now we're coming up to that point again - DS almost 8wo.
Dh is so quiet, doesn't really make conversation with me or my friends so my friends never feel welcome in our home and it is important to me to keep my friends else I'd go mad. I was the only one he really speaks to, and is himself when he is around me, until someone said to me the other week that they have never heard us have a conversation. I laughed and said of course we do, but upon reflection I have thought about it and we really don't speak. It's like we live together, separately.
If I'm honest I'm not happy and I know that if we talked things over and sorted things it would probably get better. Things were great after we sorted it when DD was little. so great for 3 years and now we've had the baby it has gone back the way it was. And I feel like I can't be bothered to sort it out anymore.
Not really sure what I want for this, maybe just some friendly ears and somewhere to vent. Nobody to talk to in RL really. Don't like to burden my friends or family, I've put such a happy face on things for so long, they all think he's fab and that everything is perfect. 