I just need to tell someone (and don't really have anyone obvious to speak to about this) that three years ago today my recent ex-boyfriend (we'd split up 3 weeks before) killed himself. I'm in no way still actively grieving for him, although I do think about him often, more so around the anniversary of his death. Soon after he died it seemed weird to me that life for the rest of the world went on as normal and I couldn't believe he wasn't around anymore. I still occasionally catch glimpses of strangers and think it's him. I had a ring that had sentimental value that was him related. I couldn't wear it because of that, but also couldn't throw it out because of that. It just sat in my jewellery box looking at me. A few days ago I gave it to one of his friends to look after.
Anyway, it feels better now I've written it down.
I know that lots of folk have lost loved ones, and my thoughts go out to you too.