Going to the doctor in 30 mins

[Fiderer]

Sitting here shaking and trying not to cry. I want to be strong for me and for my children.
ExH has never been violent before. Aggressive yes. I have bruises on my arms. The children saw it. Am going to the doctor (as advised by Woman's Aid centre here, am not in UK) and will call the police after.
Just hold my hand for 30 mins please.

Well done Fi, you are strong and amazing and here are several gins.

Fi, you better slow down on the gin... you'll be bladdered... then again

I never come to relationships, but stumbled across this.
I'd like to give you a pat on the back for standing up to your XP. Well done.
Enjoy your gin.

Irony is I haven't got any gin. Strongest thing in the house is fennel tea.
So all gin is virtual.
At least till I get to a supermarket. Then, oh then ...
Feel odd. Relieved and dizzy and scared and I don't know what.

but you have plenty of oestrogin. coming out of the ether. Get you down to whatever outlet available for medicinal dosages asap. don't get roaring, but a couple of glasses always help. People do forget the medicinal use of alcohol.

Am off now to the local dispensary. Luckily they know me and have increased their stock.
That's actually true - but I am not ashamed. What better use of my time than to educate the locals in the many necessary uses of the gin?

I think you're a bit brilliant. Well done.

Yes. Good show Fidsy gel.

Well done Fids! Prouder than proud of you

good luck with everything, you should be really proud of yourself for taking that step, will be thinking of you

well done you.

You are one brave, brave woman! You have just done the best bit of "mummying" ever.

(((hugs)))

I'm writing this as I know lots of people read the posts here and it may help someone else.

It was so weird, like watching yourself in a film. It happened 2 days ago and I did waver about reporting it. I knew today if I left it over the weekend the bruises would fade and I wanted a record of it.

Why did I wait? I was initially stunned and concerned about the children. Thought, it wasn't that bad and it was a "one off". Never thought I would be like that. Always reckoned I'd be the strong fuck-off woman. I was so angry when it happened and told him never to touch me again. Still I waited 2 days. But all the time I knew I was putting off what I had to do.

Then thought, it's just bloody wrong to hurt someone, there's no excuse. Thought of my daughter, what I'd say to her if someone did it to her.

I worried it would make things worse with him but then, how could it get worse? He's aggressive and now he's violent. It might well have been a one-off but it's in him and he can't control it. I will call the police immediately if there is a next time.

I'm not afraid now but I was and I can understand women who are. At the doctor's and the police station I was shaking and kept thinking this is so surreal but it was real. I do not regret reporting it. I would have regretted not reporting it.
Not very coherent perhaps. I am very tired, drained. Still I hope someone else who needs help as I did this morning, may read this and it may help her.