I have posted here before under another name. In a nut shell was wrong and had an affair - it ended and started and ended and started for nearly 8 years - periods of this time i left my now ex and he did too. 2 years ago after a period of 6 months of no contact we met up. All the feelings still there. He had just left his now ex and again i was about to - i was leaving cause i couldn't forget how i felt about OM and he was cause of how he felt about me. So we start seeing each other - and its great for about 3 months then he says he can't do it cause of the guilt and that if his ex found out she would stop him seeing his daughter. So we stop but contact remains - he still saying im his one and he loves me. We start again and try again - he does the same and this goes on and on. He still had family time and in Summer thsi year they went on holiday as a family - i was ok with this. He sent me flowers the day they flew out to holiday. They came back we had a few dates then same again he can't do it cause of his guilt. We then txt and emailed for a bit longer till about 3 weeks ago then he said he needed to end all contact as he could never stop loving me if we keep in contact and he needs to stop for the sake of his daughter. Im gutted, heart broken and don't understand he waited nearly ten years then ended it when we were both single. He isn't back with his ex. Im lost and just don't know what to do. He says he has a new mobile ( i don't know number) but i keep txt his old phone and i get a delivery receipt not straight away but as if he has kept his old phone to see if i do contact him. Im just desperate for him.