It has been three weeks since I left and things are looking so good.
In 18 months he has: emotionaly abused, sexually abused, put in hospital, broke my arm, broke my cheekbone and took away any self-esteem I had. I am so proud of how I have recovered from this. I have really surprised myself!!
I dont feel even remotley tempted to go back, he has contacted me a few times and I have ignored him.
Im re-building my life getting back to my old self. I have got my old friends back and I am having fun. I am free from control, free to have my own opinions and free to speak to whom I like. I have control of my own life now.
I looked at the photo of my black eye today, it was worse than I thought. I looked terrible! That just confirmed that I am doing the right thing.
For anyone considering buying Lundy Bancroft's book.....BUY IT!!!
It is so accurate I am shocked by some of the things he says. It has made me realise what he really is. Having the knowledge that its not my fault and the things that he called me are common in abuse is empowering. It means I no longer need to make excuses for him. He is an abuser and nothing I ever do or say will change that.
All that and I havent finished it yet!!