Just posted this and lost it due to dodgy internet connection so forgive me if I'm a little vague this time.
Basically around 4 weeks ago DH and I were arguing and he knocked over a canvas painting that I was working on. I called him an arsehole (I know I shouldn't have) and he hit me across the face with the back of his hand. I fell into the easel causing bruising across my ribs and back as well as a bruise across my cheekbone from his hand.
As soon as he'd done it he looked mortified and left the room. I was stunned and got up and eventually made my way upstairs and sat in the bedroom. About an hour later he came up and said he'd tidied away all the pain and mess and the canvas wasn't damaged. When I didn't respond he broke down and said he was sorry and he didn't know what came over him. He promised it would never happen again and tried to hug me. I moved away from him and he begged me not to leave him and said he'd do anything to make it up to me. The awkward thing about it all was that we were due to fly out the Mexico on a family holiday the week after. I couldn't cancel as the kids would have been distraught.
We didn't speak of it again. We went on the holiday but this incident seems to have morphed into the thing that never happened. He's been overly nice to me since but apart from that it seems neither of us dare mention it. We havn't had sex since and have barely touched each other since (if at all). Although it isn't being talked about I can't stop thinking about it. Everytime we disagree on anything I think about it. I feel we should have discussed it at the time but now its too late, I can't bring myself to bring it up, the thought of it makes me feel physically sick. How do you even start a conversation like that after leaving it unspoken about for so long? I have no appetite and feel constantly sick and down. I don't know what to do.