Please help me survive my marriage breakdown. I am frightened

[Eider]

Many of you have kindly followed my posts of the last six weeks under
"H has left my out of the blue after 20 years. I am so sad. " He left me for another W.
The messages which have been wonderful. Thank you all for your support.
But today I am so very very low. We have agreed to separate but I cannot seem to get over him. I have two kids 17 and 14 and I must, must move on, but I am finding it so difficult.
The trouble is I miss him so much. I want him here so much, but then I think I want the husband who loved me and he is so suddenly not that person any more. I cannot seem to get him out of my system. I should be really angry but instead I feel so desperate and bereft. I feel so alone. I am heartbroken, the pain is eating me and I am so low. I have no family nor any friends really as my life revolved around the family and work. I have been on anti depressants for a while anyway, so I do not want to take anymore. I saw a GP who simply gave me sleeping pills!
Could you give me some advice please on how to get through this? The anxiety is so intense. I must not have a breakdown. EiderXX

I didn’t want to leave your post here - my heart goes out to you.

Please do start your own thread. People could easily miss your post at the end of this very old thread.

What has happened to you is horrible. But there will be a future where you are happy again - and there are many wise posters here who can help you find your way to it. So please do start your own thread.

@Nuttynats641 I would echo the above, please start your own thread, in relationships and you will get lots of help and support. Ask if you need help on how to do that.
In the meantime, speaking as someone older than you, 56 is way too young to write yourself off, don't be ridiculous. Make sure you get your fair share of the financial rewards of your long marriage, and use it to set yourself up exactly as you want. Then when you feel ready start to get out there and start the life and friendships you want. You may not realise it now but I predict a great time ahead for you.

I noticed the dates on these posts. Hope Elder moved on and is now happy.

Thank you so much for your kind messages. I feel so much better already knowing there is someone to talk to. This is the first time I have used a forum so it took me a while to work out how to start a new thread. I have done that now. It took a while. I’m sure Elder has moved on and is having a better life now. It’s nice to know there are good, kind people out there. Xxxxx