when i was about 30 weeks pregnant i accidently found out my partner had been calling a sex line whilst i was on a night shift, i confronted him about it and he apologised and said it was a one of. however when the mobile phone bill arrived the same number was on there a few times from a different date (this day i was on a late shift) when i asked about that he got a bit angry (like why do you keep bringing that up, will you never let it go etc etc.but never actually explained why the number was there)he then changed both the main and mobile phone accounts to online ones and put then in his name on the pre text that i could access the phone line details whenever i wanted if i felt so insecure.... he unfortunatly failed to give me the right pass word. i am a complete prude and hate even soft porn (it just is not for me) and he is aware of that, so having 'telephone sex' with a complete stranger amounts to in my mind as having an affair and dirty old man in raincoat stuff. if i had not have been pregnant i would have left there and then, now one baby and 9 months later i still cant get it out of my head, it still disgusts me, i still have not had sex with him and i really feel that we should call it a day..... he does on the other hand adore his son and it would devestate him if we split.
am i totally over reacting and being completely selfish?