It?s me and my location in the world again . Sorry in advance if I am boring you all to death about this but I really need to moan to somebody and I can?t talk to DH.
For those that don?t know ? we moved to Cape Town a little over a year ago and I am so bloody miserable I often feel like sitting down with my head in my hands and having a good cry. This is becoming increasingly worse ? I am so snappy with DH, homesick all the time and just sick and tired of feeling like a fish out of water all the damn time .
Problem is, is that DH will not consider moving back to the UK ? we are currently looking at Australia but this is a long-winded process so not a quick fix and certainly not definite. If I even mention being homesick, DH will retort with something along the lines of ? why are you ?home?sick, this (Cape Town) is your home. If I labour the point he becomes tense and unhappy. So now I refrain from saying anything at all. In his defence, he can?t understand why I don?t think of Cape Town as home, because I went to school here.
I have a constant lump in my throat and I think I am becoming depressed. Problem is, is that?s the way DH felt when we lived in the UK.
The other thing is that we have had to cancel our life dream of a round the world trip to accommodate the application for Permanent Residence in Australia for various reasons and I am gutted about this too
What can I do? I am damned if I do, I am damned if I don?t.