hi, i've been reading post for months now and i really need help and support, so i've been brave and posted here.
My backround is: i met xh when i was a teenager, we did the usual things, bought a house together, got married and had 2 dc's, xh was very controlling and on occassions violent but i learnt to live with it as in between these violent espisodes he was very loving and affectionate, fast forward to 2 yrs ago i find out he was having an affair with a women he introdused me to as an old school friend he found on facebook. this is what made me leave that and he got violent when i confronted him! Me and dc's went to a hostel and eventually got rehoused.
When we moved in new place and got settled i got talking to my now dp who had just seperated from his xw. I knew dp from when i was a child my family was extremely close to his family and we would go round every sunday, dp is older than me and whilst i was a child he was married with small children, so it was catching up and talking about the good old days that got us together,
We have a lovely relationship generally, i am 6 mths preganant with his baby, we've only been together 11 mths so it all happened very quickly,
i have fancied this man since i was a kid and now i got him its a dream come true, but im ruining it, i get so insecure i check his facebook account, his emails and phone, i get upset when i read things from other women which when i talk to him about it i relise just how innocent it is, im just imagining theres more to it, i get so scared of loosing him but my behaviour is driving him away, he's done nothing to make me dought him, has anyone else been in abusive relationships and had to learn to trust someone else? please any advise will be appreciated im so low atm.