Broody - I'm not, my OH is!

[mareish]

I wish I could feel more broody.
I do love the thought of being pregnant, giving birth I can see myself coping BUT, I have never really been interested in children generally, only a couple, for instance I felt great as a big sister but not really interested in my Godson. I am frightened I will have a baby then regret it, I also think I'll regret it if I don't!
My fantastic OH would love to be a Dad & I really only want to go ahead for him & hope I'll be ok. He doesn't pressurise me but time is ticking away (35 now).
Any advice?

Hi,
I can totally relate to you, im 31 now, before that i have never been interested in children, just dont know how to talk to them, dont want to look after them etc.... yet a few months ago i became pregnant in march, at first i totally freaked out (esp looking at the price of prams), I had 2 weeks to get used to the idea and suddenly realised that when everyone says you will feel so different about your own child, they are actually right. I was so excited about actually being pregnant more than the thought of having a baby, if that makes sense, i was still panicking about all the usual things, money how would we cope etc... but then at 7 weeks i had a mis-carriage. I was totally devastated at first, more because it had happened to me and not someone else if im honest than the actual problem of loosing a baby.

Over the following weeks though it made me realise and see that although im not broody in the slightest, the feeling of being pregnant and having something growing inside was amazing and i want that again, that all the other stuff will just come as natural as being pregnant.

I dont know if this helps or even makes sense, i guess what im trying to say is that when its your own child you WILL feel totally different about it all. I dont think you would regret having a child as you say as im sure the positives totally outweigh the negatives or nobody would ever do it would they, But you may look back in a few years and regret not having one earlier - as im finding myself now. I now know the mothering instinct comes naturally when it needs to and maybe that was a way for me to find this out by havig a taster - thats how i choose to look at it anyway. good luck whatever you choose.

Vix1980 thank you so much for your reply. I am sorry for your loss & wish you well for the next.
It's so good to find out an experience from outside of my world, if you see what I mean! Every one I know who has had children has always felt broody so I've no-one to relate to.

As for money - we do live on a day by day basis, no provision for future due to using savings when OH was made redundant for a while & I know that I am worried about money & is it fair to have a baby when you can't afford it?
My OH says if everyone waited to be able to afford children then lots wouldn't go for it.
Thank you for being open about the emotional side, I am more reassured now!