Ok. So I have this friend, lets call her Anna. I've known her for a very long time (about 15 years) and I wouldnt say we were "best" friends who socialised together all the time. We were work collegues once, and socialised regularly, but she (and I) both had our own groups of friends. Nowadays, She lives in another town now a couple of hours away, so I rarely see her these days, and neither of us FB anymore, I've been to visit her once for a weekend and it was so much fun. We are the type of friends who go months and months without being in touch, then out of the blue she'll text and we'll go for breakfast and talk constantly for 3 hours. I am so so fond of Anna, she is a really lovely kind person.
Anyway, towards the end of last year we emailed and she told me about a new man in her life, she was SO happy and I was totally thrilled for her, she so deserved a special guy. They'd been together maybe 7 months or so, but he was an old friend (who I'd never met). Anyway, he died very suddenly :( and Anna was heartbroken. I emailed and sent her a wee card, but I didnt go to the funeral, as I had never met him. But I felt so bad for her. I thought of her lots (and still do)
So then a couple of months went by and I email/txt a couple of times and mentioned going to see her, she seemed happy about that. But then my plans all fell through. And I really let her down :( In an email she said she was too sad to come back to the town were she used to live (and where I live) and that she missed her boyfriend so much. I felt so badly for her and didnt know what to say, so didnt say anything :(. I feel awful about this. I didnt contact her for ages. I've also had a crap year, nothing on the same scale as losing a partner, but enough to make me a bit down. Thats a pathetic excuse. But she is SO far away, if she lived here, I'd go around and see her.
It was was really bothering me, that I'd been a crap friend and I knew I needed to write to her to explain stuff, so I did as best I could without being me me me. That was about a month ago and she still hasn't replied.
I don't know what to do :( I'm such a useless friend. I just want to tell her how sorry I am. I'm frightened she is either depressed or just really angry with me.
Sorry this is so long, but I need some help.