Been with dp for 5 years, living together for most of that time. We're just about to buy a house together but the nearer we get the more I realise I'm not sure I want to do it.
Just have this horrible fear of being trapped in a relationship and in one place because of a mortgage.
I'm pretty sure that if I tell him this the relationship would be over. He's always been very convinced about wanting to grow old with me and so I think any discussion about not wanting to buy would be interpreted as not wanting to be with him.
Right now I'm happy in the relationship but I don't feel ready to make a commitment like buying a house, I don't know if I'll ever be. I'm not sure it's fair to stay in a relationship that I'm not prepared to invest in but I'm just so confused about what I want. I feel physically sick when I think I could get to a point of no turning back. Don't know what to do :(