Ex is getting married this week

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Namechanged: I really don't know how to feel. I don't want him by any means but strangely feel a bit sad. We have a child together and it was a very difficult relationship. Why do I feel anything - I guess it's the end of an era? Anyone else been through the same?

I have and I understand completely. I told my Ex O/H that I had got engaged and he asked me if I would go back to him if the marriage failed. I said that whilst I would always care for him we had had our time. The next week he announced he was getting married to his g/f and married six weeks later. I was so sad despite rejecting him. I guess I hoped he would always put me first and that no-one would mean as much. I did wish him well but was sad for what we should have had if that makes sense. I wanted to be at that stage with him again and to feel the love that we had at that point. I didn't want him back, just wanted him back at 'that point'. Hope that makes sense. He subsequently left her and I felt sad for him.... and kind of happy because she didn't give him anything more than I had. Kind of meant it wasn't me.
It will pass. I felt relief after a while that he was somone else's responsibility.
Thinking of you. x

Thanks Melon. I really don't want him at all and I can't help thinking he's marrying for all the wrong reasons but I really I have no idea what's going on for them really. I doubt this will make much sense. I guess I'm sad that we didn't work together, mostly for my son. It feels strange that he will never be in my life again and even stranger still that I should be feeling this way. Endings are always difficult I guess.