I feel so fed up and depressed.
I sleep in one of my children's rooms as i can't bear the thought of being anywhere near him.
He drinks every night, which has an effect on his moods, he doesn't see it though, he thinks that everyone else is moody.
My eldest child dislikes his moods, gets fed up with being made to do loads of jobs around the house, all because he is either too tired, or too lazy to do anything for himself.
He had a right go at me last night as he mentioned about going on holiday as a family, i said i would rather not as the thought of sleeping on a sofa for a week just doesn't appeal, plus the fact that he thinks it's his carte blanch to get absolutely drunk most days.
He accused me of using him to pay the bills, that i could pay half now and why didn't i file for divorce.
I explained that I wasn't going to leave the house and he was refusing to as well, so we were stalemate, that whilst he was living in the house I couldn't get any financial help, so as he earned more than me the bills were his responsibility.
Well you can imagine the response to that one, i was called a few unsavory names, in front of one of our children.
I am so fed up I cry myself to sleep most nights, feel so down and to be honest struggle to cope with managing the children's behaviour some days.
If i have a go at one of the children, its all my fault, i'm the one in his words - mentally unstable.
I have said i want a divorce which apparently i am wrong for doing this as i am being selfish, not thinking of the children only myself.
Just needed to off load thanks for reading.