I don't know how to sort myself out. I was besotted with this guy - totally in love with him when he left me because he wants children and I cant have any more. I have to see him all the time and it kills me. Its been 6 months and he's still permanently on my mind. He left me telling me that I was the love of his life but he wants a family. Im exercising, working hard, meditating, reading every bloody self help book I can get my hands on but with out No Contact I fail to see how I am going to recover. I work odd part time hours in a well paid job so finding a replacement is really hard - believe me I am looking, and so is he apparently but we are both long standing employees and getting anything like same jobs is pretty much impossible and I need the money as a single mum. How can I get over him? I still love him. He is sociable and gregarious and is the company joker so I see him having fun with my colleagues - he's always 'flirted' asexually with both sexes but he - as he should - gives me a wide berth unless we have to work together. I feel so low when I hear him laughing with people - hes unfortunately a life and soul type that everyone gravitates to and not being able to join in anymore stings so much. help me? I'm so depressed :(