I can't move on part deux

[queencat]

hi all

Thanks for your advice I need a bit more of it I'm afraid.

I've just made a total arse out of myself in front of exp.

I asked him whether he would like to spend bank holiday Monday with us and he said quite blatantly no I don't want too I'm not going out with you.

Before I even said it I knew the answer would be no. Why the fuck do I keep slongbthis to myself it's like I can't get my head round the fact that he doesn't want me or i don't know I fucking love being rejected. I feel like such an arse. I've come home in floods of tears again. How do I stop behaving in this self destructive way?

Please help me xx

Sorry about typos am angry typing from phone.

Hey don't beat yourself up about it, the deed is done now, remember next time you feel like asking him what he replied the last time.

We all make mistakes and just have to move on from it.

I do it all the time it's like I can't take no for an answer!

I feel like I'm going mad I just want to be happy again I'm exhausted from crying and feeling sad.

You've now just added a large dollop of self loathing to your existing angst and longing. Are there any other things you can do to help make yourself feel worse? I say this because you seem to be on a self destructive cycle. I'm assuming you wish to break this cycle so do what's necessary? If that is the case then stop doing things that will make you feel shit about yourself. Either that or go and join the foreign legion.