I don't know what to do.........
I've been with my fiance 8 years. He lived in oz and his wife & kids up and left and came back to UK. I met him days later after he came back to Uk as well, and there the trouble began.
He had a drink problem for starters, he hadn't had a good upbringing and had (has) one hell of a chip on his shoulder. To cut a long story short it took me many years of verbal and emotional abuse before i finally got him off the booze. His kids who are now young adults don't want anyhing to do with him. We have a gorgeous 2 yr old son together.
He has weighed me down for so many years with his depressing, miserable, moaning ways. He doesn't want a life, he barely talks, we don't do anything together or as a family, we don't even sleep in the same bed let alone have a sex life. I have been on anti-depressents so many times because he has made me so miserable.
I can barely get out of bed and find looking after a two yr old very demanding. He calls me a lazy cow infront of the neighbours. We lost our house in the recession and now rent. He lost me my previous job because of his drunken outbursts. Oh my god there is so much to say but at the end of it he says how much he loves me? I think the tables have turned and now I just want rid, I am so unhappy and just want to be with my son but how will I manage emotionally, financially. I scream and shout and throw and break things in fits of rage and temper because he just will not go, he refuses to leave. This is breaking my heart as my son sees all of it. He is a good father but We do not have one happy memory or one photo of us together, this cannot be right?
My sister once said she met someone who told her that people have one of two types of auras. One type is a warm, comforting, giving happy etc and the other a needy weighty, sucks all your energy type. TThe latter is him and he has sunk me so low........ as well as this I have put on so much weight ( i am 18/19 st ) I have no energy, no self asteem, no nothing. All I have is my son and I love him so much.
But he is a good father and i believe a child should have two parents. I know people will say one happy parent is better than two unhappy ones but really, I don't want to be a single mother statistic, I have seen my sister do it twice and it's hard.
I am so confused.