Help me I am going mad

[Sillyflower]

hi there, I posted before and there was too much personal info so the thread was deleted.
anyway name changed too just go be safe.

Ex had affair. He then ended relationship a few weeks ago. We are separating. He is moving out asap.

I am convinced he is still in contact with the OW. And never stopped contact with her when we were supposed to be working things out. I have no proof just gut feeling.......

It's driving me mad. I am so angry. It still makes me feel sick. He refused to share any info about affair details......which I found hard.

Everything was found out by me including the affair.

Why do I feel that the truth will help?

It's over. He is a liar. I am even starting to feel happy it's over. Why is this thought about him messaging Ow still eating me up?

I need to not care too!

Sillyflower, try not to be so hard on yourself, it's totally natural feel like this. I think you haven't really let go which is why you are torturing yourself with thoughts of OW but maybe it's better not to know? Try to get on with your life and forget about him, you will eventually reach a point where you genuinely don't care, but it still sounds like early days to be expecting that of yourself.

Thank you. I wish I could figure it out. It's pretty complicated. We have a young daughter with disabilities......i am very worried about everything.
I guess I am finding it hard that he has decided to leave us.
I am so frustrated that I am letting it get to me.
He seems to have found it easy to just cut himself off.

I really feel for you flower, this must be so painful for you. got to give you a hug.

It is hard that he has walked away and won't tell you anything (which you found out on your own anyway). That's very hard. The truth does help to make sense of it all - it is cruel of him to leave you floundering. BUT in time you will feel better. Try to stop worrying at the wound (I know it's hard). There are so many women on MN, sadly, who know what you are going through - have a search and read/join some of the threads, you'll get a LOT of comfort and support from them.

Are you sleeping ok? Looking after yourself? Do keep an eye out for your physical and emotional welfare and give yourself some space at this awful time xx