I am an idiot. I have a loving husband who adores me despite my flaws, two gorgeous children, a lovely home and have been married for 10 years. In the last year or so my dh and I have met up with my ex Uni fling from 20 years ago and his rather gorgeous partner (tall slim bubbly blond) of 8 years through another Uni friend who stayed in touch. Whilst it is all fine and not awkward when I see him, I still feel like he was the one that got away and I still think he is gorgeous. We had a brief sexual fling before our finals after me fancying him like mad for two years or so. It took me a long time to get over it after we both went our seperate ways after graduating. He lives 20 mins away now and in the last couple of months we have all had lunch altogether and last weekend my dh and I went to his party. I felt 20 again and all those feelings came back. Is it normal to still feel like this? He texted me last night to thank me for his present. I assume he got my number from his partner.
It is like an addiction - I know I should avoid him in future but my heart says otherwise. Anyone else got any experience of this? I suspect I am playing with fire and I really think he is just being friendly. (fyi - it was him who intiated the fling 20 years ago but there was never any discussion about continuing after we left Uni - we both moved away - I guess in my over active post - analysis - it left me feeling a little used / not worthy of a relationship). So why would I even want to see him now?