emotionally lost it since having a child, anyone know what i mean?

[chocolatemummy]

since haveg a child I have gone through a whirl of emotions that i guess are normal with such a massive experience. but whats the most worrying is that it has questioned everything about me and I really was so happy and in love with my husbnad before I had me daughter, and since, I have even strayed? and with my family background thats something I never ever thought i would do

nobody will talk to me? is it because I said I have strayed? its a long story and it was with an ex, I didn't go out on the pull or anything, .....chance would be a fine thing!

Do you find the questions raised are giving you a positive whirlwind, or one that you find a struggle?

most seem to be negative from what i can see

What seems to have suffered? Your own self-esteem? (that happens when you feel like ababy-machine), do you thiink you could have mild depression (that often sets in as a result of all the hormonal and other changes that happen), your relationship with your DH? - has he been supportive, is he the Dad you thought he would be?

Sometimes I think it takes a while to appreciate what you have. Having a baby changes both your lives but the mum most of all, Since having my baby (7months) I have gome through a whole range of emotions but the hardest thing is that your life will never be like it was before. That doesnt mean its bad just different, you take pleasure in your baby and the things he/she does. Every waking moment is spent deciding when to feed, play, bath. Your DH is probably adjusting to life with a baby and the fact you strayed may indicate that you want to prove to yourself your not just a mum and wife. Maybe explain to your DH that you need some time on your own, even for an hour to have a bath and read a few chapters. Remember how happy you were before and I am sure you can get there again.

chocolatemummy, it's possible you might be suffering from PND.

One thing a friend of mine (a new mum) said that I think rings very true is that having a baby is like the best thing ever and the worst thing ever happening at the same time. It's bl**dy hard work! My DS is just coming up for a year old and I'm still reeling

Thanks for replies everyone. I love my daughter so much and totally appreciate what i have got. But at times I resent her because having her has made me different from all my friends, none of whom have children yet, and therefore over the 2 years since having her I have more or less lost touch with most of them and i do get very lonely.
I am not in the same area as my family either which makes it hard.
As for my dh, he is a great dad, he is just very much a dad and not much else, we have been out as a couple probably about four times since having her two years ago. a. we don't really have any babysitters and b.he doesn't want to.
I get so bored and yes I do feel like I am just mum and wife most of the time. I guess my ex is still very sociable, always was much more my dh, and he still treats me like me and not wife/mum.
I think the whole thing about not having much in common with my friends anymore, not having family around and my husbnad turning into my dad adds up to me being quite depressed yes.

You're very welcome chocolatemummy

Have you thought about going to the doctor, or talking to your HV, if you get on with him/her? It is hard being away from family, we are. Tough, isn't it? Do you have any good friends you can talk to?