I have a 15 month toddler who I adore. After I had him I toook antidepressants for 12 months for PND. I felt strong enough to come off them after a year but still have days where I feel like the worst Mum in the world. In my most rational moments I know that I'm not doing anything wrong and that my son gets everything he needs from me - love, attention, feeding, changing, etc, etc but sometimes my head just doesn't feel like being Mummy and I get terrible guilts about that.
The dilemma is that my husband is very keen to have a second child (and I really want another too) but I know that he's soon going to start asking 'when' we should start trying. I love the idea of being pregant again but I'm terrified of getting PND again and having to try and cope with a newborn plus my increasingly mobile and inquizitive toddler! I want to try and increase my self-confidence as a Mum to reduce the possibility of feeling this way again before we start trying.
Does anyone know of any national groups or courses, etc that I could try?