I'm feeling totally miserable and worn out. I'm not sure if i'm just being a moany so and so or if others would feel hard done by too. My husband has had a hard couple of weeks at work, and has been home later than usual so i've been doing bedtimes and everything, he hasn't really seen the children.
He had a work night out last night, straight after work, so another evening of putting two dcs (2.6 and 9 months) to bed etc. He rolled in at 2am. This is all ok as i don't begrudge him nights out, he doesn't go out all that often.
Then this morning he had a long lie in till 11. I got children up, dressed and took them out to the garden centre. Again i was ok about this (although stark contrast with my nights out which always start after 7.30pm so i can help put chlidren to bed, i am careful about what i drink and come home earlyish so i can be up with the children the next day).
But the bit that really pissed me off was that we had a friend of dc1s birthday party today, and dads were invited. But he just decided he wouldn't come. He went in a mood (because i asked him to do a small task and apparently i'd "ordered him around"). He said he didn't want to come because there'd be people he didn't know there and he doesn't like situations like that very much. But that was so NOT the point! It was a family occasion, lovely for the dcs esp dc1. And every single other one of the other mums who'd been invited took their husbands. And with 2 small children i could have really used the help , instead i raced around trying to keep up with them both. I just feel that he is supposed to care about me, about all of us and he hasn't shown it. I feel emotionally drained and too tired to be annoyed, but full of tension at the same time. He never ever wants to talk about anything and so i don't bother and he takes my silence as everything being ok again.
Sorry long moany rant but needed to get it out.