I'm trying to make myself believe things will not get any better please help :-(

[kitcat83]

I have been married to my H for 5 yrs now, we have one ds (4) and am currently pg with dd (due in June)

I am sitting here in tears for the third time this week and about the hundreth time this month due to my H attitude towards me.
He is rude, condescending, aggressive, basically just abusive emotionally and I keep turning a blind eye. Help me work out how and what to do. So very ashamed at this and upset it has come to me thinking like I want out. I feel every day a little more of me is being crushed.

I'm at rock bottom and hormonal and feel useless and so sorry for my beautiful little boy and my one on the way is making me feel devestated

Oh no, kitcat, that sounds horrible for you :(

Feeling like you want out of this situation is nothing to be ashamed of. How far have you thought about this, any practicalities or just "I can't do this any more"?

Do you have any RL support - friends, family etc?

Keep talking - sorry your thread has been overlooked tonight, I'm sure more people will be along with supportive words soon.

I'm so sorry Kitkat. How long has he been behaving like this to you?

Have you read "Why Does He Do That?" by Lundy Bancroft? It is about men (well, people- as I saw my sister in those pages) with anger and/or control issues. It doesn't offer solutions, just explains the dynamic. Just having the insight and vocabulary of what is going on helps greatly, although probably won't make you feel any better, just more aware, iyswim.

You shouldn't have this in your life right now; he should be supporting you and love/caring about you instead of tearing you down.

Is he dismissive, etc towards your ds, too?

I agree with Teach...that book will open your eyes to allsorts of things that you may not have even recognised or noticed,it will help you understand the mindset of people who behave in this way. It helped me after my ex and I split,stopped me crying myself to sleep xx

i have been through a similar situation kitcat i was very depressed while pregnant with my DS partly due to my exs alcoholism and emotional abuse, ashamed and devestated i understand. after many last chances ultimatums and a bit of rehab for the drink i left him.maybe your DH can realise he is wrong and change with help? i realised mine wouldnt and wanted my DS to respect me and not grow up in a war zone . its hard work but im happy most importantly so is DS good luck xx