marriage in trouble

[positivesteps]

My message got deleted. My marriage is in trouble. I can't get over my insecurities and low self esteem. I don't feel confident put on weight etc and generally just feel my husband will find someone else. I work from home in business with him. He goes out to do job, I'm In office. He also has certain events and business meetings to go to.

I'm so worried he will find another woman even though he's never given me cause for concern. Its got to point where I want to know what he's up to etc.I feel ashamed of my insecurity and the rows we have over me wanting to know every detail. My mum always had a dim view of men and still does and I feel that this has contributed to my insecurities. She believes all men cheat etc

I've been on anti depressants in the past and have anxiety issues but don't want to go back on them.
I feel I am left behind. I feel fat and don't have loads of friend to turn too and don't want to socialise much as don't feel attractive being overweight. I have a strained relationship with mum and older sister. My mum and dad are divorced. I feel so lonely and noone to talk too. My mums so un supportive I can't turn to her esp with her view of men.

We have been together 9 years married 2. What do I do? How can I stop worrying and feeling so insecure to the point of being ridiclous ?

Feel so sad :( had big row tonight hence being awake. I can't sleep after arguments. So so sad that I feel so insecure why can't I feel secure? He's never cheated. When he says he loves me I just don't take it in. My confidence is so low. My mum has made our lives v difficult too putting pressure on. She puts me down and criticises. She never praises anything good that I do. If I tell her anything good or positive she just has a dig.

Feel so sad :( had big row tonight hence being awake. I can't sleep after arguments. So so sad that I feel so insecure why can't I feel secure? He's never cheated. When he says he loves me I just don't take it in. My confidence is so low. My mum has made our lives v difficult too putting pressure on. She puts me down and criticises. She never praises anything good that I do. If I tell her anything good or positive she just has a dig.

The Secret helped me a few years ago and I still read it and follow it but it is definitely a pro-active mind set and has changed my life. Its a great way to re-postulate your thinking. Yoga is great. Speak to a counselor too. At least you recognize that he gives you no reason to feel this way, so you are already ahead of the game.