I am going to try and not make this too long, becasue in a sea of people with real problems I'm quite embarrassed to be as troubled by my feelings about this as I am.
Background - I have dh and 2 dc, aged 3 and 4. Things not great between me and dh for some time. Ds was DXd with ASD about 18 months ago and things have been tough, though they're better than they were. To cut long story short I went on a 2 week course with work and during that time developed feelings for a colleague on course too. Quite a lot of fliritng, then he backtracked. Seen him on and off since (we work in different offices) and every time I see him it kind of revives my dwindling attraction to him. Sometimes he is quite flerty, other times quite cold. But work can be a bit samey and you tend to feed off these feelings just to entertain yourself (I do anyway). Today I found out he's got back with his ex and it is really pre-occupying me and making me feel unreasonably miserable. I kind of did like him, though admittedly in a very superficial way. And it makes me realise how uninvolved I feel with dh; if that wasn;t the case I wouldn't have let these feelings take over the way they have. I'm just venting really but if anyone has any tips on how I stop being so daft I'd be very grateful.