Okay here goes, Iv never spoken to anybody about this but need to get it off my chest somewhere!!...
Me and dp have been toegther for 9 years and have 2 dc! DP was my first and only serious relationship (we were 18 when we met)
DP was always a compulsive liar, whether it be about something big, or tiny little petty things.. like maybe how much something cost, or he'd say something, then in a couple weeks il mention something he said/done and he'd be like, oh sorry that was a lie, or be like no i never said/done that, i found it hugely fustrating but he didnt seem to think it was a big deal. A year ago, in jan/feb, things came to a head when i found out hed lied about something, so silly and petty but I suupposed i just reached a point where enough was enough. we had a huge talk and i told him that i couldnt take the lying anymore and if it didnt stop id leave him (at this point i was begining to doubt that i loved him anymore, tho i didnt tell him this). I think this gave him a shock and he tried his hardest to make it work.
Fastfoward 1 year to today and dp, as far as im aware, dosn't lie or keep anything from me anymore, even if hes done something he knows will annoy me he'l come clean straightaway. Hes a great dad and i know he loves me, and he'l do anything for us.. but i cant help having this sinking feeling in my heart that i just dont love him anymore. We get on great and have a laugh togther, but in the last month or so i find myself not wantin to be intamite with him and its making me feel quite low. DP has picked up on me feeling low and even said "I dont think you love me anymore"... I told him otherwise, but deep down i dont think i do, and i cant bear to tell him because i know i will break his heart. but i feel like im being unfair cause it feels like im lying to him, which i suppose i am.
I dont know what to do, I have nobody in RL i can talk to! I feel like im being such a cow :(