Have just been out with my sis, her friend and my niece and her friend...all of them are married/with partners, I'm a lone parent. I am not the jealous type and rarely begrudge anyone anything. Tonight whilst having dinner with them I felt lonely and jealous, that they have these "lives" and I don't. My niece, (who had to phone her husband and pass the phone to her mum to prove she was with her) I would be saying things like "I dont know how you can stand that",and it's none of my business and I know that but I just couldn't help myself. It makes me question my motive, that I am jealous so I say things (not horrid stuff though).
All of these women have had their cross to bear, my sister in particular, and I begrudge none of them their happy relationships. So why do I feel this way? Is this normal, because I don't like it. Seems like the only time I will feel happy is if I have someone who I have to "check in " with.