P told me last month we were over.
We'd been through a few weeks of strain, last year we had months of strain but sorted it out so i thought.
We agreed to try living together but apart so dd has us both around, he explained to dd that he was in spare room as sometimes friends dont get on when theyre too close/togetjer all time so he said weve moved a bit apart and its better.
Dd seems fine, he seems fine, i am not.
One minute were all out for lunch laughing and joking then dd goes to bed and were in separate rooms watching tv.
I still love him. He said at the time he didnt love me anymore, then that he didnt know how hed feel in future but didnt want to lead me on making me think there was hope.
Im not begging, am trying to get through each day without cracking up, im crying at the end of every day then when im asleep im dreaming about us, sometumes nice dreams that we work it out so upsetting, mostly nightmares where hes repeating he doesnt love me or im hitting his as ive found thingd belonging to another womsn.
Im not coping very well, am very unsettled and scared and i miss him so much.
These dreams are clouding my judgement as im doubting him and misinterpreting signals.
Sorry to moan, am just a bit lost x