I am happily married with one dd.
DH is perfect, very thoughtful, very loving, helps around the house, cooks, earns a good amount of money, doesn't over-spend. Literally no faults at all. He is my best fried, we laugh together, talk loads and truly have a great life.
We have been together 9ish years.
Just prior to meetig DH I had a short relationship with a man who was beautiful. Model like. he smelt DIVINE. the sex was outstanding - I have never had sex like it, we spent the whole few weeks we were together in bed. AMAZING.
He was, however, a total emotional void. He gave nothing to the relationship. Nothing except great sex, a beautiful body and face, and a smell good enough to eat. LUST is all it was. When we weren't in bed, we had nothing to say to each other. He didn't really want to be around me, would leave me with his housemates whilst he went out etc. A total nob. But god I lusted after him.
I then met DH, and realised exactly what I was missing in a relationship - dumped sex god and moved on.
However at certain times of my life I crave sexgod. REALLY crave him, I can almost taste the smell of him I want him so bad. Why? I am not insecure, DH and I have a good sex life, we still go out on dates, and I still love his company. WHY do I have this blast of nostalgia? I am in the midst of it now. I know that it will pass in a day or two and I might not think of sexgod again for another couple of years.
WTF is wrong with me?!