I am not sure if this is the best place to post this...
I want to start seeing a therapist. I have a wonderful husband and two amazing school age kids but I need to sort myself out. I suffer terribly from stress and anxiety, I know I'm probably quite insecure (constantly looking for validation etc) and I project a lot of this negative emotion onto my DH. I snap all the time, I say awful things when I get stressed or emotional, I am like an unlit firework and when we argue I just don't know when to let things go. I work myself and him up into a frenzy and then get horribly emotional about it all and try to explain my behaviour any way I can (even when I know it's unacceptable). I am thoroughly ashamed of the way I act and I am making us both sad. We love each other desperately and I truly believe we will be together always but I want to change. I want to feel better and process my emotions better because I worry about the damage I might do to my relationship if I don't.
I want personal counselling as I feel the problem stems with me (in fact I know it does). My husband is a kind, gentle, patient man and I know if I asked him he would come with me, but initially this is something I think I need to try and do alone. Please can anyone recommend a therapist in the Richmond/Twickenham/Teddington/Hampton etc area...
I've looked up some names on the BCAP website but I don't really know who to start with. I know it's important to gel with the person you see but I think a word of mouth recommendation would be great to start with.
Thanks so much - any help would be fantastic.