I really need to offload how I am feeling towards certain family members at the moment but there is no one I can talk to, I feel myself getting more and more resentfull each day,
I don't have many friends and the ones I do have are also close to my family so don't feel I can trust them not to say anything, I know my mum feels pretty much the same but she doesn't want anything said cos she is fearfull of the fallout,
Sometimes especially if ive had a drink I really feel like saying something, usually to my shame on my facebook status although I do not mention names, then delete as soon as ive realised what ive done.
I just think that several of them are so selfish and uncaring and others are just arselickers, If it wasn't for my kids and my mum (and my little niece) I would sever all contact.
Not sure what I hope to achieve by posting this on here but it's seriously doing my head in, Sometimes I wanna just move away but my kids are teenagers and settled at school,I can't be that selfish but I feel this resentment building up inside me and fear that one day I will just explode and lose everyone.