It's Lacey's birthday today (Scorps) A year on

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It's Lacey's first birthday today; I guess I'm sitting here alone, pondering. A year ago I was in last hour of labour with my best friend at my side :)

So, a year on. I'm still here, doing it, I don't feel quite so much pain anymore. Mum & Dad live in France now though, but we talk very often and have seen them over Xmas.

Lacey is a wonderful darling baby. The other children are fabulous too. When I have been ill, ds2 helped me get into bed once because i had a fluey thing, and got me water etc. DS1 and I are ALOT closer. Dd2 has been my ray of light.

I want to thank everyone who helped me through those dark dark times - on here and in RL.

Happy birthday Lacey!

Didn't post on your threads but was aware of your story

Hope you have a great new year

I hope it's better!

I haven't been on MN much at all this year, and don't recognise that many people.

I remember your story Scorps, and how fab your Dad was ?

I am sorry you went through it but glad you are surviving and sound so positive. It is hard.

My Ex left 18 mnths ago and there are still tough times but hey, I survived and have learned much and grown with my own DC's. And maybe if I have another chance at a relationship it will be more honest and equal and in the mean time I am fine just being o my own and rediscovering life.

Take care Scorps, and who knows what we will be posting this time in 2011 xx

scorps, you are such a lovely person, inside and out

happy birthday Lacey, and all the best to you too x

Hi scorps I remember your thread and your agony. Well done you.
(I have name changed so many times to avoid H snooping that I have no identity on here).

Some of the distraught dumpling newbies would do well to take advice from you as you are a gracious and lovely person who has grown in adversity.

Happy 2011

I have been looking out for you scorps, lurked on your thread but never posted. It's my little boys 1st birthday today too, also my 4th, also born at home, have been thru similar to you in the past and have often wondered how you all are.

I never doubted you'd be fine, you seem a strong, capable person and a lovely mum. Wishing you all the very, very best for the new year - health and happiness to you all.

Xxxx

Jesus Christ Scorps, our stories are so so similiar (the start anyway) that I read it out loud to dh in shock!!. i.e. I had a miscarraige in Feb 09, got pregnant very quickly again (April) went very into myself, another woman gave dh attention and he kissed her when I was 9 weeks pregnant and I went insane watching his every move...

Anyway, I just wanted to post to say I think your fabulous. You should be so proud and Im in awe of you. Truely. A huge big happy birthday to baby Lacey and I hope 2011 is a brilliant one for you all..

Thankyou everyone :)

Yes, i have wonderful parents, i think that was mentioned alot on the thread! They have moved to France now but i speak to them nearly every day, and I saw them over Xmas which was lovely!

Lots of people say I'm capable; I can 'do' things yes, but i do still cry. Just not every day, or even every week now.

My life has been a whirlwind of children this last year really, but one of my boys won a certificate at school for his manners.... its little things like that, that i have done that really boost me up :)

Hi AnyFucker, i distinctly remember you and your advice - some of which still pops in my mind from time to time. xx

ah yes, once seen, never forgotten

and I remember you

a beautiful girl, who I knew was worth more than what she was settling for

I knew you would prove me right

Good to hear you are all getting on ok.

Hope you have a wonderful 2011 with lots more certificates for the DC's .

Happy Birthday Lacey :) x

Scorps - sorry I vanished from your other thread, something happened in my life and I wasn't around on MN much.

I have just read all of your posts on your other thread from when I left... what a year you have had.

I know it's been said before, but your parents were brilliant weren't they (aren't they). You and the kids must miss them now they are in France :(

You sound like you are doing pretty well. Of course you still cry, a year in your situation isn't long really. But you are young, you still have so much of your life ahead of you :)

How has K been with the kids? Is he doing much of the 'caring/looking after'?

I rememember you well scorps and I'm so glad you're ok. It's shit but it gets better doesn't it.

Happy New Year xxx