My story is that 3 years ago my h told me about the affair he was having, with a 29 yr old (I was 43) and I was absolutely devastated.
I tried for so long to kick start our marriage. Told him it could work, we could move on from this. Tried a couple of counselling sessions but I knew his heart wasn't in it. He was still in contact with her and you can only put yourself through that for so long. So, after about 14 months I gave up.
We moved the into separate rooms, told the dc Mum and Dad dont love each other any more. The DC were upset, especially my DS who has taken is very badly and affected him in so many ways.
In the last month I figured I was moving on, feeling stronger, looking better (going to gym etc) and just generally carrying on with my life without h in it. Found new friends and going out regularly. I have now started a divorce as it needs to be done. Dont want the dc thinking this is a normal relationship, and psychologically, it would help me lots to know I am no longer part of this marriage.
So, last night my H tells me he regrets what he did deeply. He loves me, He thinks I am an amazing and strong woman and wishes he could turn the clock back.
It is too little, too late but I just feel an enormous sadness that we could have saved this marriage for the DC if he had done this sooner. I have cried and cried last night and this morning. I wish I could disappear and just cry for a week. Why did he even say anything????
But I will get stronger again. You have to dont you?
Sorry, bit of a self-indulgent rant when there are people here going through much worse. But it helps to get it out.