Help. I think I am going to be another one of those statistics, bolstering the high divorce rate over the Christmas/New Year period. I am terrified. I am not going to say that IF it comes to that, that it is entirely unexpected, nor that it is all one-sided.
I am sat here almost mourning the death of something (which hasn't died yet but which is likely to). And i never expected this- it's one of those things that you never think about when you're happy. And it always seems to happen to someone else. Except now that someone else will be me.
If it happens, it will be devastating. I am sure I will come out of it at the other end, somewhat. And really apprehensive about the fallout in terms of common friends, PILs/SIL/ family of ILs who will hate me, etc.
Then of course, will i ever find someone again? It's been quite some years though since I was single and in that mode. My body is not what it used to be and I'm not in the very first flush of youth either.
Anyone out there who waited for the axe to fall but found that they made it out o.k. after it had fallen? How long did it take you to feel normal again? Did your guilt swamp you?
PS: sorry about the rambling post. desperately need some reassurance, but no one in RL who i can talk to. Really apprehensive. And living in limbo.