Main issue is in my thread earlier. Another man who has started a relationship elsewhere. Still missing him like mad, why am I such an idiot? As everyone who replied to my post said, he just isn't worth the time and energy, but it still doesnt stop me wanting to be with him. I've fallen really deep, probably the first time in my life if I'm honest and so I just dont have the tools to deal with this. I've always been strong with men, my husband is extemely difficult so I've had to be and if I look back, isnt helping although I loved my husband when we got married, I never had the feelings for him that I do with this man. Counselling isnt helping much, all I have started to do is try to put a smile on my face and brave it out, but its wearing having to smile all the time.
Anyone out there got any ideas how I get over this, I hate feeling this way I really do, I've always been happy sort of bod, now Im finding it really hard to keep a cheerful front up for everyone