I don't know what to believe now

[confusedandupset]

This is going to long and confusing but bear with me. 4 years ago my and DH split up, we were apart for 5 weeks. I went away for a week and came back and told him I wanted a divore. About a week later he came to me very upset, he told me he had slept with someone else and he was very sorry, it made him realise who he wanted (me) and could I forgive him? I did and we moved house and had two DDs since. Last night we were having a row and it came up again(it tends to if I get angry) and he said that he never slept with her as she was infected with various things and he only said it because he knew I wanted him back and he wanted me to hate him, he wantedto come home but because he had treated me so bad he wanted a option that made me hated him.
I have always believed that he slept with her and now I am very confused. I should be happy that he didn't sleep with her but I can't believe that he lied all this time. I know that my SIL believes that he slept with her and knows she was infected and I can't believe that she would allow me to have 2 babies if she believes that I may have been infected too......... I think that he is lying again to make himself feel better but aarrrgggghhhhh....my head hurts

[Jenie]

I'd be angry too if I'd been lied to for 4yrs!! I'd go and have tests done to make sure that he hasn't given you anything, just for the peace of mind that you haven't passed any of these infections on to your children.

Other than that I don't know what to say other than good luck.

Lots of sympathy though!